Th GirL .

2010-03-20T18:27:00.005+08:00

Blogger will remain abandoned as I've decided to use Tumblr.

How I wish everyday would be filled with happiness .

2009-10-23T13:08:00.008+08:00

Hari Raya + Kuih Raya + Baju Kurung + Green packets + House-visiting + Seeking forgiveness + Family Bonding = Love

Old flames can sometimes burn twice .

2009-08-23T15:26:00.007+08:00

Its the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone all at the same time.

Its hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same.

Its funny yet stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time.

Its crazy when you want to let go of something, yet you keep holding on and

when you want to move on, you're stuck right where you've started.

And when feelings come and go, you just can't decide what you wanted.

When you have so many things to say but you just don't know where to start from.

When you want that someone in your life so badly but all you can do is to push him

farther and farther away.

Its so hard to think back on how things used to be and look at it now and realize that

things are different now and they can never be the same ever again.

P/S : Phone is under maintenance for a week or two due to corruptions. Please do not beep me at the moment sweeties. Sorry for the inconvenience and thanks for the understanding. (:

Famous Last Words .

2009-07-23T21:32:00.001+08:00

Dear lovely readers,

I'll be going on a long journey to a sacred place in a far far away land.

This will be my very last post.

I'll be back after N's hopefully.

So, Take Care and Goodbye Pocky Friends.

Never regret something that made you smile .

2009-07-20T23:47:00.010+08:00

Racial Harmony Day .

Indian Costume, Free Periods, Crappy Videos, Silly pictures & Awesome classmates.

More pictures uploaded in Facebook.

A year older, a year hotter.

2009-07-20T00:07:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Beloved Brother ~! ♥

Finally you're 14 eyhh handsome. ^^

You're now a grown up boy and are matured enough to think what's

good and bad for you bro.

All the best for your streaming this year which I know you're able to

achieve it however putting aside your lazy-bumness.

At the same time, may you'll be a successful Gamelan player one day hehs.

Well, despite all the arguments & small quarrels we've been through

and though at times, you can be such a pain in the ass bro, you're still the

bestest yet younger brother I've ever had really.

Sayaaaaaaang Fiq !

In a world of fakes, dare to be real .

2009-07-16T20:02:00.000+08:00

Teeqa's Belated Birthday Celebration ~!

Spending my time with these two lovelies is like asking for the world.

Thanks for the awesome company, the lovable friendship, the support and the sweetest advices you both gave me all this while.

I must strongly say that you both are the sweetest thang on earth,

even sweeter than the cake we gave Teeqa.

Love you Nurul Fatin Wahid & Atiqah Shawgi Abdat.

<333333

The only people you need in life are the ones

that need you in theirs.

Feelings fade and people change .

2009-07-10T19:07:00.000+08:00

Happy 17th Birthday Atiqah Sweetheart ~! ♥

A year older, a year wiser ehh love.

Wishes might come true so all the best in getting your perfect partner real soon darl. ^^

Well, I must strongly say that its been such a bliss knowing you & Kak Fatin babies.

Didn't expected that the three of us could get along so well hehs.

May the lovely friendship that we've built up last forever and ever and ever yeahh.

Anyway, have a blast birthday today sweets (!)

Will meet you & Kak Fatin pretty soon yeahh hunnies.

The greatest thing in life is finding someone who knows all about you,

knows your mistakes & regrets and yet still find the best in you.

Mission Impossible .

2009-06-30T20:13:00.000+08:00

One & Only Alyph Abdullah ♥

Forever and always mine . :D

ATTENTION : Freaking 4 more months to N's !

Note to self :

(1) Strictly no more lazing around.

(2) Inactive temporarily in the cyber world.

(3) Indulging self to more self-studying.

(4) Never gonna let any bitter moments kill my precious time.

(5) Be confident, I know I can ace this !

I realised I'm better off without you .

2009-06-25T15:01:00.000+08:00

♥ Cousin + Brother ♥

Its really great having to spend my time with these two cheekys above

though at times, I will always be the victim for their crappy and nonsensical jokes.

Sheesh, these are how kids nowadays behave hehs.

Forever teasing the older one. ^^

Still, they're the best and I love them no matter what.

Moving on, holidays seem to be ending so soon due to the fact that there

won't be any extension of holidays.

Hehs, what a sad thing. ^

Well, on a happy note, I finally managed to get myself a professional study partner.

Though, there's still some homework being left undone.

Yet, its rather pleasing to get some study tips from a professional.

Gee, thanks a lot best buddy for the teaching lessons & the cute choc which is so unnecessary.

Appreciated much after all dude.

P/S : I've changed my email due to inconsiderate spammers/unnecessary people.

Those being added, do consider yourselves lucky.

Those not being added, boleh belahhhh suahhh. ^^

Tiada ruang di hatiku buatmu lagi

Namun harusku akui

Ada ketika di mindaku, kau menjelma kembali .

One in a million Dad .

2009-06-22T11:10:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Abah ! ♥

Hope you enjoy that mini birthday celebration held at Swensens yeahh.

May Allah bless you always dearest daddy.

Words just can't describe how much I love you, dad.

And hope you love those awesome presents given by your sweetest daughter & son gyeahh.

World's Greatest Dad .

2009-06-21T19:41:00.001+08:00

You tucked me in

Turned out the light

Kept me safe and sound at night

Little girls depend on things like that

Brushed my teeth and combed my hair

Had to drive me every where

You were always there when I looked back

You had to do it all alone

Make a living, make a home

Must have been as hard as it could be

And when I couldn't sleep at night

Scared things wouldn't turn out right

You would hold my hand and sing to me

Caterpillar in the tree

How you wonder who you'll be

Can't go far but you can always dream

Wish you may and wish you might

Don't you worry, hold on tight

I promise you there will come a day

Butterfly fly away.

Happy Father's Day, Abah.

Thank you for everything dad.

Words just can't describe how much I love you.

Someday I will find my prince but you will always be my king, Dad.

<33

Cinta VS Kawan .

2009-06-15T17:39:00.001+08:00

Haha, perfectly true though.

Its begins with men but women are the ones facing it.

Weird much huh ? ^^

Well, nothing much to say about my holidays cause basically I'll be lazing around

at home doing my own favorite things.

Two weeks left yet bundles of homework are still left hanging, waiting to be done.

Absolutely not in the mood of doing it at the moment as I'm still finding the perfect

study partner to go with. ^^

To add on, I couldn't even managed myself to get out of the house due to the very humid weather and the painful cramps I've been facing lately.

No matter what, I really hope these cramps will recover in a few days time so that I

will be able to meet up with my sweetheart(s) once again, which have been ages since we met.

Some facts to be taken as a lesson :

Ramai anak muda sekarang ini cinta banyak-banyak sebagai persediaan takut kena tinggal.

Sebab kalau kena tinggal nanti taklah frust sangat. Tapi kalau semua orang begitu, apa nilai cinta zaman sekarang ni ?

Masa bercinta, cintalah seadanya dan setia pada yang satu. Nanti bila dah kahwin, cintalah

sepenuhnya, sebab kita memang tidak mahu berpisah. Berpisah selepas berumah tangga memang sakit sangat.

Oleh itu, selamat bercinta buat kali pertama dan itulah yang pertama dan terakhir kerana cinta bukan untuk ditangisi tapi dinikmati.

(Adapted from a well-known motivator )

Does it mean that he will be the first and the last love of my life ? :D

I can't keep lying to myself bout this feeling .

2009-06-14T16:38:00.000+08:00

See that cute yet cheeky smile of his ?

His smile will forever melt my heart whenever I look at him, hah. (Cam. P) ^^

I can't believe my ears that he will be shifting himself to Real Madrid.

Why can't you just stay in Manchester United that had many memories of you dude ?

Why do you even have to leave your own mate, Federico Macheda, which have always been your soccer partners ?

Hah, what a stubborn guy.

Well, no matter where you go dude, I will always be your biggest no. 1 fan hotstuff and Federico will always be my favourite in Manchester United.

You can't change your own self .

2009-06-12T17:41:00.000+08:00

Class BBQ yesterday was awesome ! :D

Had the most splendid time spend with dearest classmates which made us bond even closer since we rarely see each other these holiday.

Didn't expected that barbecuing was so much fun after a prolonged period of

not experimenting it. ^^

Spotted a Wrestling match at Pasir Ris Park of a HSC student verses a group

of an unknown wanna-be ah-bengzxsz which then leads to a halt as soon as a police car arrived.

Sadly, there were no pictures taken as everyone were awestruck and too focus by the match.

Its such a pity as some of our classmates even missed the big match. ^

And it all occurred just from a stare.

Hah, what a childish behavior gangsters nowadays react.

Lesson learnt : No staring at anyone even though a hot guy/girl happens to walk near you.

You can change your style, you can change your clothes

You can change your mind and you change your jeans

You can say goodbye, you can say hello

But one thing you can't change is yourself.

Whisper hello, I miss you quite terribly .

2009-06-10T20:51:00.000+08:00

Not a big fan of Lady Gaga. But I just admire her fashion and style.

Name a friend from A-Z .

A: Acap

B: Bayu

C: Charlotte

D: Danial

E: Elly

F: Firdaus

G: Geraldine

H: Hazwan

I: Irfan

J: Jelynn

K: Khairul

L: Laetitia

M: Mirul

N: Naazira

O: Omar

P: Peichin

Q: Qusyairi

R: Rafiq

S: Shafiq

T: Teeqa

U: Ubaidah

V: Vivian

W: Wan

X: Xiu Hui

Y: Yusneeta

Z: Zahirah

1. Can E and S be together in a BGR ? [ Elly and Shafiq ]

Haha, why not ? ^^

2. How is L related to you ? [ Laetitia ]

Schoolmates and a prefectorial member.

3. Does Y know Z ? [ Yusneeta and Zahirah ]

Yeahhh, they know each other. (:

4. If T betrays you, will you kill him/her ? [ Teeqa ]

I know she's not that type.

5. If K steals your boyfriend, what will you do ? [ Khairul ]

K is a guy so its impossible for him to steal my boyfriend unless he's a gay. ^^

6. If B tells you that he have a crush on you, what will you do ? [ Bayu ]

I shall laugh my head off.

7. Have you and M get into a fight ? [ Mirul ]

Haha, a million times. Usually based on words-fighting. ^^

8. Who does N have a crush on ? [ Naazira ]

Mr. H :D

9. If J calls you a bitch, what will you do ? [ Jelynn ]

I know she won't cause she's the nicest friend ever.

10. What's the relationship between you and D ? [ Danial ]

Online buds.

11. Who does Z like ? [ Zahirah ]

None other than her maman. ;D

12. Who is R's best friend ? [ Rafiq ]

No idea.

13. What colour does Y like ? [ Yusneeta ]

Red and white.

14. Where does F live ? [ Firdaus ]

Tampines.

15. Have you had a crush on S before ? [ Shafiq ]

For me to know and for you to find out.

16. Do you like G ? [ Geraldine ]

Haha yeahh, I love my smarty pants. ^

17. What can you say about A ? [ Acap ]

An irritating yet fun-to-be-with kind of guy.

18. How long have you known X ? [ Xiu Hui ]

For 2 years, I supposed.

19. Who is V ? [ Vivian ]

A primary mate of mine.

20. Is W single ? [ Wan ]

I guess so.

21. How do you know Q ? [ Qusyairi ]

Religious mates.

22. Who O's best friend ? [ Omar ]

Mr Bean. :D

Those who thinks this quiz is interesting, feel free to do it.

You're the reason for the teardrops on my guitar,

The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star,

You're the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do.

I prefer if you don't know me .

2009-06-08T21:48:00.001+08:00

♥ BGF ♥

Happy Sweeeet Sixteeeen Aisyah Lovely ! ♥

Have a blast birthday okay babe.

Hope you enjoyed that little surprise held at Seoul Garden which we surprised you just now.

And hope you like that baby tigger I bought for you which you're able

to hug it whenever you're feeling down love.

No matter what had happened, be a strong girl alrights.

Yknow how much I love you babe.

On a random note, Hannah Montana The Movie was worth the bucks.

I can't believe I was laughing my ass off all the while in the cinema.

Therefore, its no surprise if you hear people watching that movie over and over again.

And trust me, one of the people would be me who is willing to watch it over a million times without getting bored nor sick of it.

I gotta be strong,

Just keep pushing as there's always another mountain,

That I'm always gonna make it through.

The promises since you made .

2009-06-01T14:31:00.000+08:00

♥ Forever the sickest kids.

Happy 18th Birthday Ita Twinneyhh ! ♥

A year older, a year wiser.

To me, you're forever the wisest twin ever.

Anyway, have an enjoyable birthday yeahh love.

All the best for your A'level which I'm very certain you can achieve it.

Last long with Shaad no matter whaaat huns.

Yknow how much I love and treasure you sweets.

CT forever hehs ! :D

P/S : I'm missing the three A's badly .

Especially (insert name here).

Where have you all been hiding yourselves all this while ?

Its such a disgrace if I'm still hoping for you

though I'm beginning to miss your old self.

Ira's Sweeeet Sixteeeen .

2009-05-28T22:59:00.000+08:00

Happy Sweeet Sixteeeen Ira Bby ! ♥

Hope you enjoyed your lovely sweet banana-flour 16th birthday bash yeahh.

And I really hope you had a great time spending with us at the beach just now.

Well, it was kind of a mini celebration yet an enjoyable one though.

Sorry to the extend of bashing you up with flour.

After all, its your birthday girl !

Anyway, may all your sweetest dreams come thru aye.

All the best for N'lvl and ML O'lvl this year huns cause I know you can do it.

Last long with Maman no matter whaaaat.

And I hope you like that little gift box from iqah and myself.

Yknow how much I love you ~~dude~~ babe. ^^

BGF love ! :D

On a random note, I managed to bump into Shafiqah sweetstuff at the beach.

Yknow how much I miss you sweets.

Tonnes of apology for not noticing you in the first place due to my very very poor eyesight.

Sorry once again lovely and I really hope we could make ourselves free during the June hols alright.

Freaking 3 more days siow !

*Gasps*

Birthday Dedications .

2009-05-26T19:02:00.000+08:00

On this special day, dearest Mama,

I would like to express in words.

How important your presence is to me.

You have always been my constant

Source of guidance,

Source of support,

Source of encouragement and

Source of light during times of darkness.

Therefore on your birthday, I really hope yknow how much you're

being appreciated and being loved by me.

May Allah bless you always mummy.

And hope you love that sweet tweety-bird perfume that me and bro had given.

Once again, Happy Birthday Mama ! ♥

<33

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In soft gleaming night of stars.

May all your dreams come true.

May every star of every night.

Bring love and joy to you.

Happy Birthday To You Best Buddy ! ♥

Hope you like that tiny little surprise I left for you which was

nothing much though.

Anyway, have a fabulous birthday today yawww !

All the best in getting your license real soon and be sure to

drive me around hehs. ^^

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Rose is red,

Sky is blue,

Honey is sweet,

Just like you.

Happy Birthday Smarty Pants ! (:

Have an enjoyable sweet sixteeeen birthday celebrated with your loved ones aye.

No matter what, your hottie pants here will always be there for you.

And continue to be the most smartest girl in class yeahhh. ^^

Thanks for everything babe.

Love ya smarty panties ! ♥

Genggam bara api biar sampai jadi arang .

2009-05-24T23:56:00.000+08:00

Officially 7 more days to the big Mr O's !

*Faints*

Oh baby, I'm sure we can do this babylove(s) !

Bak kata pepatah, bukit sama didaki, lurah sama dituruni.

Keheningan malam pada hari ini sungguh menusuk hingga ke kalbu hingga
membuat kelopak mataku kian sudah mulai berat untuk dibuka.
Dan di saat ini, aku ingin sekali merebahkan tubuhku ke tilam empukku
hingga membawaku ke mimpi-mimpi yang indah.

Okay, I know my malay sucks big ballzxsxsz, yeahhh.

Selamat Malam Dan Mimpi Manis ya semua ~! ^^

Adakah perasaan benci

ini sebenarnya cinta ?

Yang masih bersemadi untukmu.

For what that's worth it .

2009-05-17T11:01:00.000+08:00

I was trying to fly, but I couldn't find wings.

Then you came along and you changed everything.

You make me crazier, crazier.

Its funny that people tend to say, they hate that someone, when deep inside their heart they truly love that someone.
Its funny that people may say they love and appreciated their best friends when behind their backs, they gossip about each other.
Its funny that good memories can make your tears welled up.
Its funny that friends can just leave you when you're down and when you needed them the most.
Its funny that love could turn into hatred one day.
Its funny that dreams won't come true even though it seems so real.
Its funny that smoking is bad for our health yet some are still smoking.
Its funny that lies can be packed in one "love letter".
Its funny that someone can say they love you truly but at the time, it didn't mean a thing.
Its funny that people can forgive others even though they could not forget.
Its funny that people change and they think they're so much better than others.
Its funny that hello always end with goodbye.
Its funny that forever never seems to last.
Its funny that when you needed that someone, they're never around.
Its funny that sometimes friends could turn into strangers.

But the funniest part of all, none of that is funny to me. Its not funny, but its called reality.

Dilemma .

2009-05-13T21:46:00.000+08:00

Exams are finally over.

After all the burning of midnight oil, torturing myself into a mugger

and having insomnia, it has finally ceased.

Such a huge relief.

However, thinking of the number of days for Malay O's makes me wanna pee though.

Gosh, it will be in about 19 more days and I'm feeling awfully nervous about it.

Well, I know people would mostly say that Malay is such a chicken little paper for

you to score and why is there a need to worry about.

To be precise, I'm just feeling incredibly anxious to be sitting for

a national exam paper for the very first time and the last.

Therefore, those who have sat for the national exam should definitely knows

how I'm feeling currently. ^^

Anyway on a lighter note, I suddenly feel a strong urge of hanging out with

my sweetheart(s) and lovelie(s) after a prolonged period of not meeting them.

Missing them a gazillion !

Let's go for a movie marathon babie(s) !

I'm awfully depressed as there are too many amazing movies which I have

yet to watch.

Okay, this is real madness.

Moving on, may babies are coming up really soon and I've yet to decide of

what to get for them.

Give me some hints at least of what you would like for your birthday please babie(s)

so that I won't have a headache of thinking of what to get for ya'll though. :D

Alright, I'm really feeling ultra beat right now and I shall please myself into

getting a good comfort sleep.

Hell yeahhh, its such a good thing that tomorrow's marking day

so that I will be able to spend my lovely time with my hunny bunnies tomorrow.

Goodnight Pokerfaces.

Kamu seperti ular yang sangat berbisa

Suka memangsa

Diriku tergigit cinta

World's Greatest Momma .

2009-05-10T19:30:00.001+08:00

Beloved Mother .

A lovely flower and a homemade scrapbook specially for dearest mama.

Happy Grandmother's & Mother's Day !

Motherly love <33

Celebrated Mother's Day @ Orchard Hotel.

Without her, my life would not be complete cause she's the

reason for my smiles and my breath.

She never knows how much she had helped me grow

from a baby to a toddler and then to teenage hood.

Without her, I wouldn't even exist in this world.

She's my angel and my soulmate.

Nothing in this world means more to me other than her.

There is a mystery lies within her where no one else can compare to

her sweetest love, her charming compassion, her sugary sweetness

and her lovely beauty.

Happy Mother's Day, Mama.

Thank you for giving me the gift of life, thank you for everything.

Hope you love the awesome presents given by your sweetest daughter and son.

And may you had a wonderful time just now celebrating your very special day

at Orchard Hotel.

I love you more than words could describe.

Self-check : 3 more papers to end MYE.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.

Aren't memories supposed to fade ?

What's wrong with my heart ?

Shake it off, let it go.

Didn't think it'd be this hard.

The Climb .

2009-04-16T21:53:00.000+08:00

Sweetest addiction, (L) Federico Macheda & Cristiano. R (L)

Hottest Manchester United players ever (!)

I swear I was going gugugaga over them after they were being spotted in the news.

Walahhhh, I'm melting siow. :D

On a random note, mid-year is around the corner and I've yet to get it prepared.

Its really really scaring me out of my nerves every time I count the days to ML O's and N's.

How fast can time be hehs ? ^

It strike me thinking of how I can manage my N's after all.

Therefore, I seriously ought to get rid of all this crappyness act inside me and get me focus on my upmost-important-examination.

Wish me luck aye babylove(s). ^^

Nevertheless, I kind of missing doing surveys since I've not been doing any bulletins nor updating my blog lately.

So, well here it goes.

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Rule #1 : People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

Rule #2 : Tag 10 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse or you'll be dealt with a severe punishment by me, muahahahaha !

1. Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours ?

- The special ones at heart.

2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you ?

- Anything is possible. As the saying goes, love is always blind.

3. How long do you think you will live ?

- My fate is in God's hands.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars ?

- Half of it goes to charity while another half for family & shopping.

5. Will you fall in love with your best guy friend ?

- It happens once and I would never want it to be repeated.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone ?

- Both are blissfully blessed.

7. Are you a mummy's child or a daddy's child ?

- Definitely both as they are the ones who had given me the max. no. of love.

8. Do you wish to go back to the past ?

- Well, nope cause the phrase, let the past be the past, has always been firmly fixed in my mind.

9. What are you looking forward to right now ?

- My upmost-important-examination which is just around the corner.

10. Who are currently the most important people in your life ?

- Obviously, the special ones at heart.

11. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing someone has done ?

- Well, I'll forgive that someone though its not easy to forget what he/she has done.

12. What do you really want now ?

- A genius brain. ^

13. How would you see yourself in 10 years time ?

- Perhaps married to a hottest & richest guy on earth ? :D

14. Have you played a prank on someone ?

- Haha yeahh definitely. Its fun pranking on people. ^^

15. Do you ever wish you could just disappear to save yourself from pain ?

- Yeahhh, when I could not stand it any longer.

16. Who has the same birthday as you ?

- Kak Fatinnnnnn bby (!)

17. If you could have one super power, what would it be ?

- Mind-reading.

18. What is your idea of a perfect relationship ?

- I don't believe in having a perfect one as nobody is perfect.

19. With all the heartaches, sacrifices and pain of loving, is it all worth it ?

- I realized its all gone to waste since they are the most beautifuuuuul liars I've ever known.

20. When you love, do you give your all ?

- Definitely as its one of the most important value to me.

The 10 fortunate ones ; Hafizah, Atiqah, Kak Fatin, Dhaniyah, Hanis, Farah Hanis, Shafiq.G, Deedii, Aiman & Eezaaaa. (:

Reality check : Unfinished coursework which is killing me.

SHITTOS !

All the games you played,

The promises you made

Couldn't finish what you started,

Only darkness still remains.

Random facts .

2009-04-11T12:18:00.000+08:00

I don't know why but this heartwarming song above has been stucked into my head for weeks.
I am atrociously pissed off with those beautiful liars.
Putting a trust on them was a huge mistake after all.
I feel useless, in fact a total hopeless daughter/friend/student.
Muscle cramps are such a pain in the arse.
I hate having PMS.
I'm lucky that I didn't ate Geylang Rojak India.
Although, I'm currently having a minor stomachache.
I'm feeling practically down these days.
I shall force myself in facing the truth and stop the pretense.
I don't know what the hell is wrong with me nowadays.
I hate smokers and the smell of smoke which apparently blocks me from breathing normally.
N's and Malay O's is around the corner and I've yet to be prepared. Gosh, I'm in dead meat.
My leg is badly injured which became worser after brother accidentally kicked it.
I'm awfully upset as I couldn't fulfill my movie marathon due to my tight schedule.
Girlfranz and lovelie(s) are slowly drifting apart.
Moving on is not as easy as it seems to be.
Effort being wasted and gone just like that.
I need a break from all these, seriously.
Okay, goodbye suckassss. And please don't bother reading my blog if its a bore to you, tsk. ^

Incognito .

2009-04-04T22:31:00.000+08:00

Dead blog much huh ? ^^

Well, it was all due to the fact with my packed schedule in school which I don't find any time to update it.

Nevertheless, I must seriously confess that I've been missing a hell load of my sweetheart(s) lately including those whom I see your familiar face everyday in school.

For some weird reasons, I still miss you babies.

And definitely, I miss the others more which has been ages since we've met. :'(

Loads of hugszxsz and misses to these twenty sweetheart(s) ;

1. Nat

2. Ira

3. Iqah

4. Fizah

5. Dhaniie

6. Naaz

7. Farah Hanis

8. Kak Fatin

9. Atiqah

10. Hanis

11. Shaleen

12. Fay

13. Eddy

14. Acap

15. Man

16. Arul

17. Shafiq. G

18. Zarina

19. Wan

20. Arep

How did you meet 7 ?

Through my cuzzin.

What would you do if you & 15 had never met ?

I wouldn't notice that he lives near me then.

What would you do if 20 & 1 dated ?

Unexpected.

Have you ever seen 4 cry ?

Yeahhh, once. :D

Would 7 and 17 make a good couple ?

Probably though one of them is already attached.

Do you want to be 13's friend forever ?

Well, why not ?

Do you think 11 is attractive ?

Definitely drop-dead gorgeous siow.

What's 5 favorite color ?

Blue.

When was the last time you talked to 9 ?

The day we hang out together.

What language does 8 speak ?

English, Malay, Mandarin, Indonesia, & Sarawak(?) ;D

Who is 13 going out with ?

None. He's finding one, I supposed. ^^

What grade is 16 in ?

Institute Technological Education.

Would you ever date 17 ?

As best buddies, I supposed.

Where does 18 live ?

Simei.

What is the best thing about 4 ?

The most hilarious & amazing best-f and my one & only scandalicious.

What would you like to tell 10 right now ?

I effing miss you bby (!)

What is the best thing about 20 ?

He's full of nonsensical crappy jokes.

Have you ever kissed 2 ?

I guess so, heeees. ^^

What's the best memory you have of 5 ?

Indescribable.

When's the next time you're going to see 4 ?

Monday.

How is 7 different from 6 ?

Farah is a siglapian while Naaz is a greenview-an.

Is 2 pretty ?

Definitely the hottest girlfriend.

What was your first impression of 15 ?

Weirdo.

How did you meet 3 ?

During sec 1 orientation.

Is 15 your best friend ?

Nehhh, just a normal friend.

Do you hate 12 ?

Maybe or maybe not.

Have you seen 18 in the last month ?

Not at all.

When was the last time you saw 16 ?

I don't remember seeing him.

Have you been to 5's house ?

Yeahhh .

When's the next time you'll see 10 ?

I'm not sure myself. Maybe when we are both free at the same time ? ^^

Are you close to 11 ?

Kinda. We're classmates in religious class for 3 years.

Have you been to movies with 4 ?

Surprisingly not at all.

Have you gotten in trouble with 8 ?

Never and I wouldn't want to.

Would you give 19 a hug ?

Not in a million years. :D

When have you lied to 3 ?

I don't remember lying to her.

Is 17 good at socializing ?

Yeahhh definitely and that was how he became a hotstuff. ^^

Describe the relationship between 12 and 18 ?

A total strangers.

What's the best thing about your friendship with 9 ?

We love sharing amazing stories and crappy secrets. ^^

What's the worst thing about 6 ?

She loves to shock me out of my life.

What school is 12 in ?

TPSS.

How long have you known 2 ?

4 years and still counting.

Have you ever been in a fight with 13 ?

Yeahhh, words-fighting. ^^

Does 11 have a bf ?

Nope. Do you wanna woo her ? ^

Have you ever wanted to punch 1 in the face ?

Definitely not. I treasure her as she's the nicest best-f ever siow.

Is 20 a religious person ?

Yeahhh since he's in a religious school.

What's the best thing about 14 ?

Hilarious ever guy who never fails to make silly jokes.

Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 3 ?

I guess so cause I love 'bullying' her. :D

Do you know a secret about 17 ?

Heeeees yeahhh though up till now he's still not telling me. ^^

Do you live close to 7 ?

Sadly, nope.

What is 8's favorite artist ?

Rezky Adityaaaa kankan ? ^^

What kind of car does 1 have ?

Nehhh, she don't drive. Underage.

Have you travelled anywhere with 9 ?

Yeahhh, we travelled around Pasir Ris mostly.

Who are the lucky ones to be tagged ?

Obviously, the 20 of them. (:

Kau hancurkan aku dengan sikapmu,

Tak sedarkah engkau telah menyakiti ku,

Lelah hati ini meyakinkan mu,

Cinta ini membunuhku.

Never regret something that made you smile .

2009-03-25T19:11:00.000+08:00

Omg, I swear this awesome baby boy is superbb cute. Must watch this seriously. (:

Amazingly, I find these guys super hot and skillful. Must watch too. :D

& definitely the one in pink will always be my hottest boyfriend on earth. ^^

Been black and blue before,

There's no need to explain,

I am not the jaded kind,

Playback's such a waste,

You're invisible,

Invisible to me now,

My wish is coming true,

To erase the memory of your face.

Determination .

2009-03-22T21:19:00.000+08:00

Time's flying ultimately speedy fast.

Tomorrow marks the day that school will be re-opening once again.

And I don't feel any excitement about it.

Cause its always back to the regular basis of studying where my brain cells will be the first victim of studies.

Nevertheless, hunny bunnie(s) in school are the ones who are able to put a smile on my face the moment I faced with studies issues.

As we know we are able to go through this together if we work hand in hand to pursue our dreams especially in times when we are all preparing for our upmost-important-examination.

And I'm certain that we will all succeed together honey(s). ^^

Though, I may not be too confident of myself after seeing my latest results.

You might even faint if you see it, I supposed.

But on the other hand, I'm pretty sure my honey(s) will definitely achieved the best of everything.

Okay, I'm seriously beat and need a good rest for tomorrow's school.

Goodnight and Happy Schooling to those who are schooling while Happy Working to those who are working.

I'm tired of drowning my tears for you.

I guess this marks the end of my feeling towards you.

Goodbye and may you'll be happy with your loved ones.

Satisfaction .

2009-03-18T15:46:00.000+08:00

After endless planning and some cancellations going on, we finally got to date each other on that wonderful monday.

We headed to Pastamania first for our early lunch and ordered savoury dishes which really made each of our stomach bloated.

And since its still early to be home at that time, the three of us decided to catch a movie of Marley and me.

Well, the beginning was pretty boring which had made not only Kak Fatin restless, tired and soon fell asleep instead I was also beginning to feel sleepy too. ^

But when it gets to the middle part, the crappy jokes kept us awake though.

We then had a hell load of a fun bitching around about random yet interesting stuffszxsz in the park that really tickle our funny bone.

Being oblivious to the surrounding around us, we kept letting out bursts of laughter till it was time to head home.

I swear, it was fun hanging out and knowing you girls.

We shall hangout sometime again aye (excluding the you-both-know-who).

Btw, thanks a gazillion darlings fr the wonderful gifts (!)

Okay, I'm done and I'm gonna force myself to finish up my whole stack of holiday assignments by today as I'm planning to date my peeps tommorrow.

Aku mulai takut terbawa cinta,

Menghirup rindu yang menyesakkan dadaku.

Easily afflicted .

2009-03-17T23:58:00.001+08:00

I got bored easily and that was mainly the reason why I kept locking & un-locking my blog, changing of skin as well as changing my url.

Sorry peeps but yeahh, you just have to bear with my hell-yeahh-of-a-nuisance these days. ^^

Okey, I'm having a headache right now and desperately in need of my darling bed.

Goodnight and I promise to update soon.

Birthday Cruise .

2009-03-15T22:05:00.000+08:00

Spending my sixteeeeenth birthday with familykins on a cruise is like asking for the world.

It was v.sweeeeeet of mummy & daddy to plan it on the most beautifully-designed cruise.

I am really grateful for having the most sweetest parents on earth.

And it really touches me to see how much they have been sacrificing for me though I can be really stubborn at times.

Therefore, I can really take forever to repay their kindness.

Once again, thanks Mama & Abah for the most wonderful sixteeeeenth birthday ever.

Words just can't describe how much I love you both.

I swear I love this cuzzy twinneyhh of mine hell loads. (:

& definitely, the most sweetest parents on earth I could ever ask for.

Thanks sweetheart(s) fr the amazingly awesome presents.

Thanks Mummykins & Daddykins fr th most perfect gift.

Thanks Dearest & Babe fr th lovely ballet shoe.

& Thanks bby bro fr th pinkish handphone cover and the wonderful belt.

Lastly, I'm officially sixteeeen. Do I look like one ? ^^

& I'm thinking of having a grand wedding on a cruise, can I ? :D

Sixteeeeeeeen .

2009-03-13T15:37:00.000+08:00

Most superstitions would consider Friday the 13th as a baaaad/mysterious/unlucky day.

But not for me though, cause today is the day I'm officially labelled as a sixteeeen-yr-old girl.

And its just a coincident that my birthday fell on a 13th Friday as well as Kak Fatinnnnn bby too.

Happy 18th Birthday Kak Fatinnnnnn bby (!)

Sooner or later, you'll get ur license ehhhh. ^^

Its such a coincidence that we share the same birthdate and preferences.

And I'm so blissed to know and meet you lovely.

May the friendship that we built up will remain till eternity yeahhh.

Love you gorgeous lady (!) :D

On a lighter note, for the first time my birthday celebration held in school was amazingly enjoyable much.

I never had the slightest idea of them remembering my birthdate till the whole bunch of them surprised me in the canteen with the most sweetest choco-coated cake made specially for me.

Their plan really turned out to be so smooth and great that I couldn't even sense it, all the while.

And its all thanks to their smart-thinking of tricking me into following them.

Well, I shall only forgive you lovelies for today yeahhh. ^^

It was really touching to see them singing birthday songs for me and giving me a windfall full of awesome presents.

It really did made me feel like a superstar as everyone in the canteen was crowding around me and had their eyes all set on me the moment I cut the cake.

I was simply delighted and pleased with the wonderful surprises they made.

And I'm definitely grateful for having all these wonderful people around me.

I can really take forever to thank each and every single one of you.

Therefore, I love you sweetheart(s) more than words could describe.

Nevertheless, thanks to every single soul who have wished me either thru fon or screamed right at my face, hugged me, smeared cake on my face, bought me awesome gifts and mostly willing to be there with me on my super sweetest sixteeeeenth birthday.♥

Sometimes its better to just live with

what we got

and forget about what we want.

Gloomy .

2009-03-12T22:57:00.000+08:00

A few more minutes and I'm not even a teeny weeny bit excited about it.

Maybe because of the terribly shocking and miserable news these past few weeks that made me teared badly and is even blocking my anxiety.

Okay, I need a good comfort sleep right now.

Goodnight.

That Memorable Night .

2009-03-02T16:43:00.000+08:00

Well, bro's school eventful performance, Cest La Vie `09 last saturday was extremely fabulous.

The performances being put up by the different CCAs were greatly performed by

those skillful siglapians.

Enjoyed every single tiny micro bitzxsxz and pieces of the performances.

And I was proud to have my beloved brother performing such great nusantara instruments on stage.

"Baek uhh Fiq (!) ^"

It was worth the 15 bucks after all ehhhh. ^^

Unfortunately, its kind of pity that Hai Sing don't create such eventful performances.

Boooooo Hai Sing (!) ^^

It will definitely be much more memorable with it though.

But nevertheless, a devoted haisian will I always be, as there's too many memories to be kept in Hai Sing throughout all these years hehs.

On a happy note, I managed to bump into my lovelies there.

Much misses, kisses and hugszxsz to each and everyone of them. ^

(Farah Hanis, Atiqahhh, Hanis bby, Feeefit, Best buddyy, Haslinahhh & Shahirah.)

Sadly enough, I didn't manage to meet Kak Fatinnnn bby though.

Nevertheless, we shall meet on that upcoming special date of us gyeahhh.

Sudah cepat lupakanlah aku,

Jangan pernah ungkit masa lalu,

Kau meninggalkan aku tanpa perasaan,

Hingga ku jatuhkan airmata,

Kecewa aku sungguh tak berarah.

Ku rasa cukup sampai di sini sahaja perasaan ini.

Epoch .

2009-02-26T20:00:00.000+08:00

Well, at last I could update this unlively blog of mine.

Had been totally busy preparing fr common test these past few weeks.

And it seems that my brain is gonna burst at any time due to the stressing of studies.

Gosh, I wonder if I could still cope on my N's after all. ^^

On a happy note, bro's school eventful performance, CLV is coming up in about 2 days time.

And I'm uber excited in meeting those lovelies there.

Especially Kak Fatinnnnn bby, Farahhhh & Atiqahhhh sweetheartszxs ~!^^

Can't wait to meet you all siow (!) :D

On the other hand, march babies seems to be getting nearer.

And I've yet to purchase their lovely presents.

Oh, anyone's willing to shop with me these days ?

Cause I'm in need of a shopping twin right here to complete my oh-so-long-shopping-list. ^

It seems that I have a lot of things in mind lately to purchase on though I'm currently broke.

So I better dream on, getting those beautiful things unless someone who is surprisingly

generous to be willing to fulfill my shopping list hehs.

And I swear I'll love that generous one till eternity manzxszxsz.

Ohh, dream on, I'm thinking too much.

Tertutup sudah pintu hatiku yang pernah dibuka waktu hanya utkmu.

A stranger in a strange dream .

2009-02-15T16:18:00.001+08:00

I had the most strangest dream yesterday throughout my entire life.

And trust me, I really mean it when I said its strange.

Its surprising much that it would happened on my upcoming sixteenth birthday.

Which also involves that 'someone' whom I had been trying to forget about.

Suddenly, I kindda miss that someone ehhhh, geeeez. ^

Well, I really hope it doesn't happened, though it was kind of a sweeeeet dream.

But hell yeahhh, its just a dream so gyeahh no big deal and no point fussing over it.

After all, dreams won't come true as it will only happens in fairytales.

And please don't bother yourself asking me about the dream cause I won't

be telling anyone including closed ones.

Heeeeees . :D

Sheeeshh, why the hell am I updating this crappy shit ? ^^

Kesimpulannya, mimpi hanyalah mainan tidur semata-mata.

Secret love .

2009-02-14T20:25:00.000+08:00

On Valentine's Day we think about

Those matchless people who

Give extra meaning to our lives --

The very special ones at heart

Without them, skies would turn to gray

Things wouldn't be the same

Life wouldn't be as colorful

And it would be a duller game

So when I contemplate that group

Family and friends who are mine

Ya'll are greatly treasured and loved.

Sayaaaaaaang koranggg semuerr (!) ^^

Well, Valentine was quite alright, I supposed.

Everyone was basically eager to receive heart-shaped balloons, cookies, cakes and many others from special ones.

And hell yeahh, I received tonnes of prezzies from loved ones.

Thanks a gazillion sweetheart(s).

Appreciated much lovelies. <33

On a random note, hell loads of unwanted things had happened lately too.

Shocks after shocks continuously.

This is really driving me insane and I can't stand it any longer.

But still I was lucky enough not to experienced a heart attack though. ^

Thank God (!)

Nevertheless, you'll be surprised that I own a secret valentine.

Bby bro, pretty pleaseeeee (!) ^^

2009-02-08T18:41:00.000+08:00

Gosh, how I miss this superbbb cute yet awesome baby boy.

Its been ages since I've seen him around.

How I miss the times mummy & I babysitted him each day.

How I miss when I played around with his soft lovely toys.

How I miss carrying his light-weight body around the house.

How I miss touching his smooth fair tiny cute hands.

How I miss when he slept comfortably over my shoulders while I was holding him.

How I miss watching barney seasons with him.

How I miss singing barney, i love you, you love me songs to him.

How I miss pinching his soft skinned yet chubby cheeks whenever he laughs.

How I miss, him calling me 'Kakak'.

And most of all I really do miss himself.

Kieren Khan Sherlock, you're greatly missed bby.

:'(

Psssttt, Mummy can I have a baby bro of my own, pretty pleaseeeee ? ^^

Cause it seems that adik is too big to be called a baby alr, tho at times he 'acted' like one.

Sheeshhh, what a pampered brother ~!

Still, I love you lahh kentalzxsz (!) ^^

Cinta ini sudah hilang dan tidak mungkin akan kembali lagi .

Fate remains unchanged .

2009-02-01T14:04:00.000+08:00

Life is always full of disappointments and people we trusted will sooner or
later let us down.
Often those whom we love will love someone else and there's
only one way to fall ; fast & hard.
Out of thousand smiles, it only takes one to touch the heart.
Words can be deceiving but the truth always lies in a person's
eyes.
Everything can change in the blink of an eye and tears come
without invitation.
Crying can make us stronger and there is never too much
love to go around.
Prejudice helps no one and that weapons don't hurt people,
people hurt people.
Sticks and stones may leave cuts and bruises but harsh words leave
scars.
Every time we give someone a piece of our heart, its a piece
that we'll never get back.
Past is meant to be put behind us and we can't dwell on
regrets for what's done is done.
Trusting ourselves is the first step and that forgiving is
remembering that helps our own heart more than theirs.
Family isn't always blood and everyone is someone's hero.
Life is unexpected and that God can do anything.
Imagination is our greatest gift and that we are meant to dream
for a reason.
It is never too late to fall in love and that being 'beautiful'
is all on the inside.
Mistakes are our best teachers and everything does happens for a reason.

-Life Quotes

Anyone can be taken at any time in our lives not depending on the age.
Neither young nor old, everyone will eventually feel the atmosphere of death.
And we'll never know when its gonna be our next turn.
But we always wait till the day they're gone to say things that we never had the
courage to do before.
Hence, if I happen to die one day, please do forgive me fr all my sins towards
anyone out thr yeahhh. ^^

Therefore, I've really learned to appreciate each and every of my special ones at heart, wholeheartedly.

And its really painful to suddenly lose someone whom we love dearly.

May God bless your soul dearest Uncle .

In loving memories of 310109 .

"People fear death more than pain and its strange that they fear death.
As, life hurts a lot more than death which at the point of death, the pain is finally over."

Insomnia .

2009-01-30T17:24:00.000+08:00

School's been hectic much.

And I've been feeling so gloomy/frustrated & pissed off these days.

Due to some not-to-be-stated reasons.

Well, I'm really sorry to beloved girlfriend fr my sudden changes tho.

You know who you are honey.

As I've explained to you lve, I needed time to get this prob solved, though

I've been trying my very best to push it aside.

Thanks fr th advices and all btw huns. <33

Studies have been such a murderer to my brain cells.

And due to that, I've been experiencing insomnia lately.

Huge black rings are slowly forming around my eyes.

Which really made me look so pale and sick.

On the other hand, its really frustrating when tiny pinkish pimple began to appear

all over my face.

Well, this really shows that I've not been taking care of myself.

And I better do have a good rest & sleep these weekends before I fall sick,

as I wouldn't want it to affect my preparations fr my upmost-important-examination

this year though.

So, pray fr th best of me yeahhh lovelies. ^^

Aku telah berhenti berharap,

Dan menunggu datangnya gelap,

Sampai nanti suatu saat,

Tidak ada cinta yg akan ku dapat.